Kalan.FrFr - Going Through Things lyrics

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(Ayy, Benjamin, he got Benjamins) yeah, yeah

Look in my eyes, it look like I need to pray
Huh sure hurt inside, but I still
Smile in your face, huh
I wanna cry, but I can't let you see me cry
I wanna die
But I can't go until I know you good
It was all love, then niggas hated
But I knew they would
It be all fun gettin' faded
'til you get addicted
The system really prejudiced and racist
But they call it business
Police kill a nigga
Call another policе as the witness
Homie kill a nigga
Wе do twenty on a joint sentence
This where we gon' let the choir sing
It's a joint sentence
I would pray for change
But ain't no change coming
I would pray for rain
But I don't wanna change my fit
I would say her name
But I don't wanna chase that bitch
Actin' like I ain't gon' be sick
Like I hate that bitch
Sometimes I be in a mood and I hate that shit
Sometimes I just want you and
I hate that shit
Sometimes my ma think I don't love her
I don't call enough
Sometimes my pops think I don't love him
I don't call enough
Some of my sisters feel like
I don't love 'em, we don't talk too much
Some of the homies feel like
I don't love 'em, i ain't seen 'em lately

I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
I know you be worried 'bout me
I don't want you to worry 'bout me
Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you
You know I'd be hurt without you
Know I got you (Know I got you)
Just know I got you even when I'm gone
I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
'Cause I know you be worried 'bout me
Yeah, I don't want you to worry 'bout me

And y'all know I wouldn't give
This up for nothing
I done got so famous that
I'm famous to my cousins
Everybody think I made it
But this shit ain't really nothing
All the times I had to smile when
I was so sick to my stomach
All the times I said I
Couldn't and I couldn't
But you ain't believe me
All the times I said I would
You said I wouldn't 'cause
You couldn't see it
Mommy and my daddy both sick
I'm just glad I'm breathing
I smile heavy as fuck 'cause it ain't easy
But I know they need me
I been going through things, yeah
I'ma be alright, so don't you worry 'bout me
Long as I'm breathing
I'ma try and make it easy on you
Long as I got it and you need it
You know I'ma come through
Running, speeding, flying
Don't you treat me like you
Don't know who I am
Told you I love you and you
Told me I was lying
Don't you treat me like you
Don't know who I am

And I been going through things
Sometimes I do let the phone ring
I know you be worried 'bout me
I don't want you to worry 'bout me
Yeah, 'cause I be worried 'bout you
You know I'd be hurt without you
Know I got you (Know I got you)
Just know I got you even when I'm gone

Know, I feel guilty
I feel like I don't talk to my mom as
Much as I should and it really bother me
I hope she always know where
My heart is 'cause
I don't always feel like I'm doing enough
With my pops, I feel like
I know he going through a lot right
Now and I can't be there
For him the way he want me
To be there for him
So I just, I be feeling guilty because I know
He going through so much
And it's just helpless
It ain't nothing I can do
I just hope he know I'm always there for him
And with all the wrong going on in the world
The hardest place to look is in the mirror
I hear 'em talk so bad about a nigga
And all that shit get passed around

I just wonder if it's as hard for
Them as it is for me
Counting my pockets for they own profit
Don't know what I got or what I make
Just wondering what they could take
It's okay, that's what I'm here for
It's a lot I notice i notice when I say no
That your care for me often switches focus
But it's okay, that's what I'm here for
I do know that if roles were reversed and
I was down and I was hurt

You wouldn't give me your last
You would put your priorities first
But it's all good 'cause you
Know I'd never ask
I'd rather go out bad than let you
Know that I'm on my ass 'Cause in my heart
I know my mills due like wet grass
And I'm a hustler
It ain't nothin' for me to get not one bag
Everything ain't always what it seems
Nightmares often get mistaken for dreams
And I don't know what it's like being you
But I can tell you it ain't easy being me
Yeah, the pressure make me stay to myself
When y'all call
I don't always answer 'cause I don't
Always got nothin' good to say
Everybody go through they own shit and I
Don't wanna put my problems on nobody

I know y'all worried about me
But I don't want y'all to worry 'bout
Me because I'm worried 'bout y'all
And I love you with my whole heart
Shoot, the ones that love me
The most done hurt
Me the worst, but I understand and I forgive
I just hope they forgive me too
I been to more funerals than
Anything and to be absent
From the body is to be present with the heart
When you die is when everybody get
A chance to have you, you know?

You know, sometimes I wish I wasn't
You know, sometimes I wish it wasn't gon' be
Or it wasn't gon' take that long
To get you to understand
But, you know, if sooner than later
Tell my child who I was
Through in and through out
And make sure they know my love
The same as you do twoFr
Even when I'm gone