Kaonashi - I Found No Peace lyrics

The devil is real and it's not a
Little red man holding a pitchfork
It's the feeling that you can't go
Anywhere 'cause you don't belong
It's when everyone stares but nobody cares
Nobody cares it's the ongoing feeling of
Paranoia and horrible self-consciousness
It's the humiliation that comes
With growing up
And being told, "You're wrong, shut up
You're wrong"

I have had such a hard
Time trying to makes sense
Of my teenage years, and fears, and tears
I have had such a hard time trying
To catch up to all my peers

I have had such a hard time
Trying to feel okay
At home sweet home sweet home sweet
Home sweet home sweet home

Kick your Chuck Taylors, make a fucking mess
Fuck your Sunday's best
This is Friday night's regret
I've got my backpack full
Of clothes and booze i've got nothing to do
I've got nothing to lose

I've got no idea where I'm sleeping tonight
But it ain't with you, so I'll be just fine

You wanna know why I'm never home?
Because I always feel so alone
So what's the point of laying in a deathbed
If it's not even comfortable?
You always tell me you're disappointed
But, I know I'm not a disappointment
I'm just young and full of mistakes

I found no peace in brushing the dirt off
For the millionth time i found no peace
In neverminding your friend 'cause that's
Just how he is i found no peace
In subscribing to the myth that that
The way I dress and talk
Has to match the color of my
Skin and your fucked up preferences
I found no peace in crossing the street so I
Don't seem like a suspect i found no peace
In stares from men in suit's
I found no peace
In your Friday night keg stands
And your shitty electronic music
I found no peace
In being myself or being what
You want me to be i found no peace
In my weight, my skin, my color
My sex, my hair, my face, my self
I found no peace in myself i found no peace