Killstation - Xiphinema lyrics

Maybe it's that I believe that
Subconsciously I'm not worthy
Or deserving of being happy
But for a long time I've
Not wanted to be here
And there's nothing that I can
Do to leave here faster
I can't kill myself, I can't
It's not that I don't want to
It's that I absolutely cannot kill myself
I've tried multiple times, numerous times
And I cannot die, I won't fucking die
Some of me thinks, I live to die
And I want to die
Because I want the pain to stop
The medication doesn't help
The psychiatrists and therapists
They don't help none of it helps
None of it helps