KiNG MALA - grocery store lyrics

Disassociating in a grocery store
Left my body rotting down by aisle 3
On the floor paramedics showed up
Said I'm made of plastic barbie on the shelf
But, I don't feel fantastic no
Can't hear through the static
My minds been held hostage in the attic
Tragic i keep

Squandering my own potential
All my problems residential
My brain is a detrimental place
It's a case of overthinking
Sinking in my thoughts
Like is it real or is it not
The voices in my head they talk
I want it, want it all to stop

Is this really my reality
I want it, want it all to stop
Looking perfect when I'm on your screen
But honestly I'm not even fucking happy
You might call it living
Must be kidding it's a bad dream stop
Stop i'm just another fraud
Please hold the applause

Hallucinating in a library
Reading these self help books
But they're scaring me say to meditate
A minute feels too long
Maybe I'm just too far gone

Tastes so artificial it's official
Hard keep it plain and simple
Non of this is beneficial wait
I'm to blame cause
I'm the cause i'm the reason
Calling it self loathing season
Tryin' to get away but I get caught

I want it, want it all to stop

Is this really my reality
I want it, want it all to stop
Looking perfect when I'm on your screen
But honestly I'm not even fucking happy
You might call it living
Must be kidding it's a bad dream stop
Stop i'm just another fraud
Please hold the applause

They tell me don't cry over spilt milk
But, it's seeping out my pores
A piece of cake don't feel so easy
When you eat it off the floor
And everyday I feel so lucky
When my teeth fall from my face
Didn't get too much to eat but hey
At least I fucking ate