Kneejerk - Back to the Trains lyrics

I used to have it all planned out
I used to know where I was going
"And every way you turn leads the same way"
- you break the silence with these words
And with a call back to the trains
That drag us home by our hair
There is no sanctuary in nostalgia

I love you i just want to melt into
The dark warm living earth and find
That special place I sought when I was
A child playing hide and seek
Here I can hide without fear
Of discovery leave me alone, i'm
Just a child inside this empty
Shell, I cannot hide
I know I can't hide wihtout fear of discovery

In the time it takes for one single
Raindrop to fall down your cheek
I have said "i love you" a
Thousand times in my head
How much longer can I be
A friend and nothing more?