Kno, Tonedeff - I Wish I Was Dead lyrics

There's a cloud hanging over me
What's in my head i can't see
There's a cloud hanging over me
What's in my head i can't see, yeah

It seems I’m captive in a carnival
The main attraction
People stand in line for hours, stoked
They pay to laugh
And see me sabotage my charted
Goal to escape this trap
While reading transcripts of my horoscopes
Then it fades to black
Repeat the pattern till my heart of gold
Is stained and cracked decreased in value
If I pawned it whole would I make it back?
The things that matter seem so hard to hold
So I’ll face the facts
And leave this planet how I found it lone
And embrace the casket
Feel so damaged, that I can hardly
Cope in a savage world
Where the scars reopen at random
If you don’t wanna choke
Put a bandage over your parted throat
I’m man that’s on his own and
I can’t get over these obstacles
And it adds a sting that the common folks
Are this adamant to think god’s a hoax
And I’m outta hope
Though I’m strong I don’t wanna
Live with the strain no positive notes
No prospect glowing to give me the strength
I simply revisit the day that misery came
And, I wait for the light at
The end of the tunnel, until it hit's me
That it was a train

I can feel my blood circulate
The whole of my body
Cause there’s holes in my body
Like a blow from a shotty
I’m assuming it probably
Cause the hospitals got me
I get up off the gurney
And I am certainly wobbly
But it doesn’t concern me that
I am fervently nauseous
I’m not overly cautious
I just don’t know what caused it
So I’m talking to doctors
Asking where is my family
Or who was it that brought me
Or who was it that shot me
Cause, I’m hurt pretty badly
But my memory’s shoddy
And nobody will help me
So I’m wobbling oddly
To the front of the lobby so
Maybe someone will spot me
But my face is in pieces
Maybe they don’t recognize me
Now I’m just realizing, as I open my pocket
That my phone is inside it
So I’m frantically dialing
Trying to call my fiancé
Maybe she’s trying to find me
But, I hear ringing behind me
And it strikes me as odd
I turn around as she walks
Up to finish the job

I’m wishing for death
The world is a weight upon my neck
Oh, oh, oh i’m wishing for death
If today’s like tomorrow, let this end