Knowmads - Mourning Comes lyrics

Alright this is the last one
Let's do this shit
And get the fuck outta here
Imma just go in, uh

I don't want to think about suicide
I don't want to talk about suicide
How come all I see is suicide, suicide
Oh lord?
I don't want to talk about suicide, suicide
No more

I wonder how they feel inside
Does their pain feel as real as mine?
I've been doing everything I can
To heal my mind
But some days I hear these voices in my head
Tell me
I ain't got no choices I'd be better off dead
Damn it's miserable
The way I see this world through this lens
While my best friend tell em Pep
You doing it again
You don't understand the feeling
I don't wanna waste my breath on you
Woh, Pep chill
Homie really how depressed are you?
People might ignore me cause
I’m dressed normal
If it wasn't for these meds
I'd be less cordial
I don't need your sympathy
I don't want apologies
I just want the tools to feel happy
My psychology is
Impacted, you used to pop molly and xans
Until you off the shit and
Keep on having panic attacks
Running ten miles
Trying to get my sanity back
Leave my pain on the record
Leave my blood on the tracks
Like suicide, suicide, oh lord
I don't want to think about suicide, suicide
No more

Yeah, she asked me: so on a scale to 1 to 10
How you feel today?
I feel like I don't know what
It feels like to feel okay
I think the whole world against me
Wanna see me fail
And if I died tomorrow nobody would even care
Social media just makes me feel unimportant
Running outta hope, running out of resources
People are here for you fuck it
They don't understand me
For ten years I've been a
Burden on my fucking family
I don't want to start relations
Cause they turn unhealthy
And honestly there's nothing you can
Do to fucking help me
I can't hold down a job I'm a bag-a-bond
Feeling paralyzed, by myself sabotaged
Damn it's hard to chase my dream
Stuck in this position
Say depression in my genes
That's my disposition
Fuck the stigma and your judgment
Imma keep it real
This song's for anybody out there
Who been thinkin' 'bout

Suicide, suicide, Oh lord?
I don't want to talk about suicide, suicide
No more but every winter it's just suicide
Suicide oh lord
I don't want to talk about suicide, suicide
No more

Buts it's on my mind

Yeah
As soon as autumn snow falling they've
Been known to go all in
I notice my phone ringing
Forever that bloat calling
Ignoring their low balling backing love
And all the highs
Future start to fold while that
Money on the rise uncovering the lies
My family start cutting ties
What is pride when I couldn't look
My mother in the eyes
Fiends blowing up my line
Real friends I never call
Set it all now can't speak
On fentanyl without offending y'all
We all got a friend involved
We did not mean to let fall
Thought he'd make it to the league
Ballin' since he’s 3 ft tall
Sizzurp without the pancakes cause
I ain't flippin' that
Cause, I know where I'm headed but
Ain't loving where I'm living at
Thuggin with that bitch to match
Closed dress and mo fresh
But really feelin' so stress, fast money
Slow debt scared of heights
So I'd like a tightrope with no net
Trying to deal with the fear
Overcome but don't forget
Said maybe if I'd quit
Still I'd do just fine
But, I got enough spit for my shoes to shine
See nogges? Turn legit
Working but ain't earning shit
Kids is curious if that reward
Is worth the risk
I'm rolling like thunder bout to
Crash tuck the heat 12 years in my truck
Another 5 under the seat
Were shooting like Kobe den
Hopped up in my dopamine?
Slowly getting lonely when cocaine
Became my only friend
Sometimes you gotta break it so
You know it bend
Hoes is so pretend, relationships is open-end
I'm feeling like I'm
I'm feeling like I'm lost in hell
Taking meds till my face red
As this shotgun shell
Like how the fuck am I not dead
Or at least locked in jail? On the edge
Take my problems drop em on that scale