Necrotted - Happy Dysphoria lyrics

My instinct of self-preservation
Constrains me to adapt their manners
And to accept their norms and rules
I hardly try to resist

Intent to rebel against their authority
But I can't find the strength
Held down by my dysphoria

Suddenly the storm clouds disappear
And I'm chasing rainbows
Flowers blossom in my head my heart throbs
Pumped full of medication they drugged me up
Can't focus on my honest aims
My concentration is lost

My mood swings up and down
To the highest hills and
To the deepest depths
I'm on the verge of giving up
I'm torn apart internally

Am I all alone? Or is there anyonе else?
I fake a smilе although I want to cry
Drowning in desperation
I pretend to be happy let's be happy
Happy