Negative 25 - Brutal lyrics

I’m smiling you buy it
I say congratulations
I’m jealous when I see you win
No, really you earned this
Those numbers just confirm it
I’m lying through my teeth again

And they should know you’re the best
As long as I’m better
Went to your show just to
Check what you did wrong

My insecurity’s brutal
I hear my voice and I cringe
I need somebody’s approval now ‘cause I’m
Too proud to see you win

Reaction, no passion
They said my songs don’t say much
Tell me if this one says enough
Took like four years to make this
I think it makes sense I hate it
Is it bad or is it bad luck?

And they should know I’m the best
I only get better
Put one hand up just to prove I do no wrong

My insecurity’s brutal
I hear my voice and I cringe
I need somebody’s approval now ‘cause I’m
Too proud to see you win

Who else do you know does it like this
Sing sad songs pretend being honest
Everyone I know is better than this
Sing sad songs look how good my art is
1, 2 1, 2, 3, 4

My insecurity’s brutal
I hear my voice and I cringe
I need somebody’s approval now ‘cause I’m
Too proud to see you win