NF - Dreams lyrics

Yeah, most of my life's full of sad days
Started at a young age
Yeah, bought a house but I've
Been livin' on stage
Tryna find the real me, I ain't found it yet
Wake up every morning feelin' like I'm guilty
Talk to God, "Can You hear me?"
Lately, I'm a mess
I don't want no one to help me
Yeah, I don't want no one to help me and

If you think that I make decisions
Based off of what you think
Then you're wrong can't nobody think for me
I got my own thoughts
Sometimes you don't know what you
Had until it's all gone, till it's all gone
If I took the hand that was dealt me
Then I would be nowhere in life
Yeah, I had to think smart
Threw away the deck and got my own cards
Long before I had the money to afford a car

I–I've been doin' me (yeah)
I've been doin' me yeah, I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me i've been doin' me
I've been doin' me yeah, I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me

Most of my life's full of regrets
Things I wanna take back, yeah
Wrote you a letter
Wish that I had never sent that
Didn't even make sense, I don't even know
All I know is I get lower on the weekends
They tell me I should make friends
I just sit at home
Lately, I've been off the deep end, yeah
I've been off the deep end and

If you think that I'm 'bout to change who I
Am just for you then you're so wrong
As a kid I built a
House around my broke heart
Sometimes you don't know what you
Had until it falls apart
Till it falls apart
If I took the hand that was dealt me
Then I would be nowhere in life
Yeah, I had to think smart
Threw away the deck and got my own cards
Long before I had the money to afford a car

I (yeah) –I've been doin' me (Oh, yeah)
I've been doin' me
Yeah, I've been doin' me (I have been)
I've been doin' me followin' my dreams
Yeah, I've been doin' me (Followin' my)
I've been doin' me
I've been doin' me (I've been followin' my)
Yeah, I've been doin' me followin' my dreams
Yeah, I'm just doin' me
Yeah, I'm just doin' me

Yeah, I'm reminiscin' back to
Both of us laughin' playin' old records
Thinkin' every one of 'em's classic
Windows down
We on the street up in Michigan rappin'
We talked about it
But never really knew it could happen
My confidence about as low as the gas is
We didn't have the money for it
So we'd turn the key backwards and sit in
Parking lots for hours till
The battery crashes
I think that we related 'cause both
Of us were lookin' for answers
A couple months ago I drove into Gladwin
Got me all in my feelings
It's somethin' 'bout bein'
Somewhere that's familiar
Pull in the gas station
Open up the tank then I fill it then laugh
Would I move back? Mm, not in a million
But, I appreciate the memories we had
I know you've been callin'
Sorry I never call back
I know I've been distant
You know I never meant that
You can tell the family how
I'm doing if they ask i'm just doin' me