NF - How Could You Leave Us lyrics

How could you leave so unexpected?
We waited, we waited
For you, but you just left us
We needed you, I needed you

Yo, I don't know what it's like
To be addicted to pills
But, I do know what it's
Like to be a witness, it kills
Mama told me she loved me
I'm thinkin' this isn't real
I think of you when I get
A whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison
Let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me
But, you don't know me that well
Sit in my room
Tears runnin' down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, say you comin' to get us
Then call a minute later just
To tell us you're not, i'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent
That I don't barely know
Some lady in the corner watchin'
Us while she's takin' notes
I don't get it, Mom
Don't you want to watch your babies grow?
I guess pills are more important
All you have to say is "no"
But, you won't do it
Will you? You gon' keep poppin'
'til them pills kill you
I know you're gone, but I can still feel you

Why would you leave us? Why
Would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How could you leave us? Why
Would you leave us? Oh hey

I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But, I don't need a picture of my mom
I need the real thing
Now a relationship is somethin'
We won't ever have but why do I feel like I
Lost somethin' that I never had?
You shoulda been there when I graduated
Told me you loved me and congratulations
Instead you left us at the window waitin'
Where you at mom?
We're too young to understand, where you at
Huh? yeah, I know them drugs have
Got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes
They got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high
But, I am not laughin'
And what you don't realize and
What you're not graspin'
That I was nothin' but a
Kid who couldn't understand it
I ain't gon' say that I forgive
You 'cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I'd feel
Better as time passes
If you really cared for me
Then where you at then?

Why would you leave us? Why
Would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How could you leave us? Why
Would you leave us? Oh hey

Our last conversation
You and I sat in the livin' room
Talkin' 'bout my music and I brought
You some to listen to
You started cryin', tellin' me this isn't you
A couple weeks later
Guess you were singin' a different tune
You took them pills for the last time
Didn't you? They took you from us once
I guess they came back to finish you
Cryin' my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place that I
Can go to speak to you
It took everything inside of me
Not to scream at your funeral
Sittin' in my chair
That person talkin' was pitiful
I wish you were here, mama
But every time I picture you
All I feel is pain
I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor
I could tell you felt hollow
Gave everything you had
Plus your life to them pill bottles
You gave everything you had
Plus your life to them pill bottles
Don't know if you hear me or
Not, but if you're still watchin', why?

Why would you leave us? Why
Would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How could you leave us? Why
Would you leave us? Oh hey

Sometimes I think about like
Sometimes I think about things like, you know
When I'd have kids, I'm like
You won't be there, you know?
You won't be there for any of that
And I'll never get to see you again
Sometimes I wish I would've just called you
I wish I would have just picked up the phone
I wish you were here
I mean you should've been there for us
You should have been here!
Them pills got you, right?!
Them pills got you, right?!
I wish you were here