NF - Not the Same lyrics

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Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you i can see you there
Yeah (yeah) , oh sometimes I like to pretend
Like I'm not scared like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no (yeah) yeah

I don't deserve it i ain't even worthy
Yet you give me water when I
Tell you that I'm thirsty
Still I take some things in life
That really wanna hurt me
I say I'm livin' clean but I be livin' dirty
Back and forth swervin' like
It don't mean nothin'
I'm married to my sins so I
Treat it like I love it
I kiss it and I hug it
And don't put nothin' above it
You tell me to just let it go
I say that I ain't budgin'
I rather be a killer, be a sinner, be a liar
I make my own wings, yeah
That's how I'm flyin' it's all about me
I don't see that I'm blinded
And one day I'ma wake up and
Wonder where all my time went i just

Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you i can see you there
Yeah (yeah) , oh sometimes I like to pretend
Like I'm not scared like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no (yeah) yeah

You gave me a gift, God
I ain't gon' waste it
I don't want the whole world
I just wanna taste it
I just want a little bit, you know
Somethin' basic
What's wrong with doin' drugs, gettin' high
And gettin' wasted? You tell me to face it
But, I can't confront it
I look at my problems
That turn around runnin'
I don't like what I'm becomin'
And even though I say that
Once I get away from it
I know I'ma stray back sick of wakin' up
Wondering where my faith at
Told you I'm a liar
That's probably why I hate facts
Nevertheless, as I look out this
Window today and see
Your outstretched arms and tears on your face
I realize, God, really need your help
I ain't been livin' for you, Jesus
I been livin' for myself
Been caught up in the world and
Caught up in the sin
Time to unlock the door, kill my pride
And let you in

Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you i can see you there
Yeah (yeah) , oh sometimes I like to pretend
Like I'm not scared like I don't need you
I don't need you here, no

And now I raise my hands for the Son of Man
You're all I neeeeed, yeah
And now I praise your name
Lord, take everything
You're all I seeeee, yeah
I'm not the same as I used to be
Yo, you wanna see a change
There's a change in me
I'm just tryna make you understand, basically
I'm not the same, I'm not the same
I'm not the same as I used to be
Yo, you wanna see a change
There's a change in me
I'm just tryna make you understand, basically
I'm not the same, I'm not the same
No, no, no
Sometimes I look out the window of my life
And I can see you i can see you there
Yeah (yeah) , oh