Nina Simone - Alone Again (Naturally) lyrics

I remember this afternoon
When my sister came into the room
She refused to say how my father was
But I knew he'd be dying soon

And I was oh so glad, and it was oh so sad
That I realized that I despised this
Man I once called Father
In his hanging on, with fingers clutching
His body now just eighty-eight pounds
Blinded eyes still searching
For some distant dream
That had faded away at the seams
Dying alone, naturally

I was his favourite child
I had him a little while
Just as long as I could play the
Piano and smile a little smile
Just when I needed him most
He was already a ghost
And for all my life there were promises
And they always have been broken

Leaving me alone with all my troubles
Not ever once touching me and saying
"Daughter, I'll help you get over"
Now he's fading away, and I'm glad to say
He's dying at last, naturally

It's a very sad thing to see that
My mother with all her heart
Believes the words that the Bible said
"Til death do us two part"
For her that was forever and ay
He deceived her night and day
How could some English words so
Small affect someone so strangely?

Taking her away from us, her soul included
She might as well be gone with him
All the children are excluded
Loneliness is hell, I know so well
For I'm alone, naturally

I waited three weeks for him to die
I waited three weeks for him to die
Every night he was calling on me
I wouldn't go to him
I waited three weeks for him to die
Three weeks for him to die

And after he died, after he died
Every night I went out
Every night I had a fight
It didn't matter who it was with
'Cos I knew what it was about
And if you could read between lines
My Dad and I close as flies
I loved him then, and I loved him still
That's why my heart's so broken

Leaving me to doubt God in His mercy
And if He really does exist
Then why did he desert me?
When he passed away
I smoked and drank all day
Alone again, naturally