Paycheck - ​antidepressant lyrics

Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah
Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah

Everytime look into the past
Always come back empty
Everytime I dream about the future
Why I feel so empty
I’m just moving steady tryna find my break
In a world
Where my life is what they all tryna take
I don’t know when imma start
I wanna know to begin
I wanna look at my life in the future and
Say that I lived and I always repent
Father I know and I want to forgive but
I know that I’m stuck with my sin
That’s cause I always grew up
With this conflict inside, it’s fighting
Identity crisis within but that’s a lie
He says he’s wanting to fight
I say that I am more likely to fly
The Devil is playing these games mind, yeah
I don’t know where Imma go
I don’t know where Imma hide
You see that I built up this
Tower and built up my pride
But it’ll be gone when I die, yeah

Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah
Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah

Growing up I never knew what to say
I never knew how to take it
I never knew what to do
When these people would tell
Me to go home and die in my blanket
I never knew how to fit in
Cause a misfit knows how to standout
But now they got nerves to hit me
Up while I have made it not taking handouts
I never knew I would make it this far
Cause I’m making a change and
I’m flipping my cards
And they realized that I had a full flush
So they wanna hop on the wave
While I'm being a star
I ain’t there yet but I’ll make
It I know I feel it
It’s flowing through all of my veins now
People saying that I’m fake now
But I ask them, why you change now?
Is it because of the money?
Is it because of the fame?
I don’t have either and I don’t
Care how big I get
I will always be faithful to whom I was made
I'mma stay true to myself
I'mma stay true to the people
Who gave me a cell
And picked me up whenever I fell
And do that til I’m hearing
The ring of the bell

Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah
Looking through my camera roll and
All I see is has-been's
The future's looking bright but I’m stuck
Here in the past tense time is always wasted
And my mind’s always racing
Music is my medicine
It’s my antidepressant, yeah