Project Vela - Reality lyrics

Is this reality?
‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be
Nothing more than a terrifying dream

Your breath is short, life is fleeting
I’m not ready for mine to take
On a different meaning discretion of death
Indiscriminate and capricious
Like saying fuck it, let’s give a vicious
Pull at the strings of a puppet
That looks and acts and sounds like me
‘Cause I’m the creator, the actor
The animator
When everything in life gets harder
We’ll both suffer the fate of
A stone dropped in water

Is this reality?
‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be
Nothing more than a terrifying dream
Is this reality?
‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be
Nothing more than a terrifying dream

Crafting a persona, putting on a new face
I’m taking back control of
This inanimate case
Of something that used to smile
Something that used to laugh Obsessed with a
Reality that I can’t go back
Down the hatch goes all the pain that
Ends up stuck in my throat
I want to push my fingers down
Inside to make me throw
Up all the hurt, up all the doubt
You know it’s gotta come out
But the way we live this life is in pain

Is this reality?
‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be
Nothing more than a terrifying dream
Is this reality?
‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be
Nothing more than a terrifying dream

Vibrant in an instant
Ghost-adjacent the next
A photo captures life but
Ignores death’s effects
A spark in the eyes, a gleam in the smile
Makes it seem like life might
Be normal for a while, but it’s not
The norm is now a fight and a struggle
Hidden behind a slight joke
It’s a juggling act
Between now and eventual like
Playing in the rain
And the sun hit's a puddle
It evaporates and dissipates
Turns out this life is
Nothing great without you

Everything ripped away it’s harder every day
There’s nothing left to say
I need you with me everything ripped away
It’s harder every day
There’s nothing left to say
I need you with me

Everything ripped away (Is this reality?)
It’s harder every day
(‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be)
There’s nothing left to say
(Nothing more than a terrifying dream)
I need you with me
Everything ripped away (Is this reality?)
It’s harder every day
(‘Cause it’s so fucked up it’s gotta be)
There’s nothing left to say
(Nothing more than a terrifying dream)
I need you with me

Is this reality?