Quadeca - I DON'T CARE lyrics

Everybody loves a winner-winner yeah

I swear, they only love me when I'm not there
I know you trust me, but I don't care
I swear that I don't care
I know you love me, but I don't care

You know I was born up at the top floor, uh
But I came out at a basement, uh
Mom wanted me to be a doctor, uh
But I came out as a patient, uh (Oh, oh)
Now I get a thousand DMs every day
I had a fan telling me that I saved him
(For real)
Saying that he loving everything I make
And I couldn't take a single second
Out my day to make his (Uh)
I'm just getting number every time
I see my numbers (yeah)
Every time I see the bottom
Every time we see each other (yeah)
Every time I pop a bottle
Every time I hit the lotto
Every time I see tomorrow
I just really want another (Uh, uh, uh)
I'm just stuck between the gutter in the
Rain, and the pain that I'm feelin', but
It's somethin' in the same kinda
Vain that I'm healin' from (yeah)
I wonder why I feel so little
'Cause I ain't been on the top
I think I'm somewhere in the middle
I'm somewhere in the- middle, yeah

I swear, they only love me when I'm not there
(There, Everybody loves a winner-winner)
I know you trust me, but I don't care (No)
I swear that I don't care (Care)
I know you love me, but I don't- (Care)

So what? So what? So what? (What?)
Hole in my soul, that shit
Looking like a donut, yeah
(yeah)
(Winner) You and me can laugh together
But, I don't think that that's
Gon' put it back together
I've been living like I'm
Stuck under the covers
I know this'll make 'em proud
But I know they
Gon' need another And another
And another, and another, and another
Like I'm DJ Khaled with
A motherfuckin' stutter
'Kay, yeah today I woke up
Grabbed my phone to check the 'gram
I started scrolling
Got a message from a dude
Without a profile picture
Shit was long as fuck
I thought that he was trollin'
So I tried to swipe it out
But accidentally must'a opened
I said, "Fuck it, guess I'll read it now
That's it already loaded"
Had a sudden premonition
But it faded in the moment
So I focused, started reading
Let me try my best to quote it
As he wrote it
It said: "My homie was a huge fucking fan
Used to play your shit every day
He struggled with depression
And he told me that the music was
The thing that always set him straight
But I guess it must of
Gotten too much for him
Killed himself a couple months back
It's felt so fucking long
But it reminded me of him when
You popped up on my page
And I went and started listening
To a couple songs, so
Keep doing you, bro"
He followed up with a post from his friend
It was a screenshot of my track
I clicked the profile full of "RIP"s
And the comments, shit
I couldn't even stomach looking at
But all the sudden, in the instant
Everything felt grimmer read the name again
And realized it sounded familiar
Clicked the DM
To see if he had talked to me before
Saw this was the same
Kid I consciously ignored (Every)
A couple months ago

I swear, they only love me when I'm not there
(So what? So what? yeah! yeah! So what?
Body loves a winner-winner)
I know you trust me, but I don't care
(What? yeah)
I swear that I don't care (No! I don't care)
I know you love me, but I don't care
(So what? So what?)

Apathy there's no reason to be mad at me
That's just how it has to be