Recoil - Want lyrics

I want to know how it will end
I want to be sure of what it will cost
I want to strangle the stars
For all they promised me
I want you to call me on your drug phone
I want to keep you alive so there
Is always the possibility of murder later

I want to be there when you
Learn the cost of desire
I want you to understand that my malevolence
Is just a way to win
I want the name of the ruiner
I want matches in case I
Have to suddenly burn
I want you to know that
Being kind is overrated
I want to write my secret across your sky
I want to watch you lose control
I want to watch you lose

I want to know exactly what
It's going to take
I want to see you insert yourself into glory
I want your touches to scar me
So I'll know where you've been
I want you to watch when I go down in flames
I want a list of atrocities
(Done in your name)
I want to reach my hand into the
Dark and feel what reaches back

I want to remember when
My nightmares were clearer
I want to be there when your
Hot black rage rips wide open
I want to taste my own kind
I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets
To see if it's different on this side

I want you to come on strong
I want to leave you out in the cold
I want the exact same thing, but different
I want some soft drugs some soft, soft drugs

I want to throw you
I want you to know I know
I want to know if you read me
I want to swing with my eyes
Shut and see what I hit
I want to know just how much you hate
Me so I can predict what you'll do
I want you to know
The wounds are self-inflicted
I want a controlling interest
I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die
I want to be your secret hater
I want to stop destroying you but I can't
And I want and I want and I
Want and I will always be hungry
And I want and I want and I want