Ren - Not so goodbye lyrics

I think about her with her clothes off
Wonder where she’s been who she’s with
Or are her clothes off
I could probably do good with some Zoloft
Maybe it help me keep me
Steady or from going off

You got me more fcked up
Than I could have thought
Never had a problem 'til i saw
You now I got some
Stomach tied up all in knots guess i thought
I could find a way ease the
Pain so i sought one
I'll be up late at night, watch the sky
As my life by surprise pulls
The rug from under me
You don’t care well that’s alright
I’ll keep moving on despite all the hate and
All the spite you have for me
I'll still love you anyway
Keep holding on for better days
Suns out still feels like a rainy day
Clouds in the sky and I can’t make em go away

Go away, I wish you would go away
I'm lying through me teeth but I
Know it's what i gotta say
You should stay, you should stay
I know that it’s no good but
Goodbye is what I gotta say

Pour me a double and then put in on ice
Get drunk and crash my car
And i wouldn’t think twice
Ninety-nine problems running all up
Through my mind
Sometimes I wonder why I even fcking try

Got a few things that I wanna say
I don’t think you’d understand but
I'ma tell you anyway
Everything I try fix ends up in disarray
I’ve been thinking I should
Just escape maybe runaway

Used to be that I could just take a puff
Go to sleep
Sweet dreams now every night’s a late one
Coping is a technique I don’t
Need I can sleep as
Long as I keep drinking til my face numb
Heart beat double speed heart attack
At nineteen all I
Need is morphine or maybe find a shotgun
Double vision I can’t see losing
Vision losing sleep thought
That was fcking getting better
Guess I thought wrong
(guess I thought thought that i
Was fcking getting better, guess
I thought thought wrong thought that
I was fcking better, guess I thought)

Pour me a double and then put in on ice
Get drunk and crash my car
And i wouldn’t twice
Ninety-nine problems running all up
Through my mind
Sometimes I wonder why I even fcking try