Roy Harper - Circle lyrics

I had to pass all of my exams
The old man said I had to be the best one
I had to do this and I had to do that
They really kept me under constant pressure
'And why aren't you the captain
Of the cricket team?'
'Why aren't you the genius of the class?'
'It's about time you pulled your socks up
Me lad
Otherwise you'll get a rude awakening'
I had to be this and I had to do that

I really had to try and be a someone
And they all tried to make
A someone out of me
And never saw that I could only be me
The worst thing about the
System is the system
And if I was to be successful now
They'd all turn round and say:
'Eeee Mother, that's our lad there, look

He's a good lad' 'Aye he's a good lad'
'He's got forty-eight million in
The bank now, aye
Aye he's a good lad'
'But I always knew he had it in him, you know
I always knew he had it in him
I said so eeee I was right eeee I was right'

'But Dad, I came away from you
I came away from everything the whole
Of that scene stood for-
I mean you remember all those heroes
You wanted me to be?
All those engine drivers I had to be?
I tell you there was only
One thing I could have
Been and that was me yeah but you know
Oh well'
'Aye lad, but I knew you had it in you'

'So you knew I had it in me?
Yeah so what's the new word? - Success?
Yeah, all right, so
Well if that's what success means
You can stuff it i don't wanna know
And the money and the trappings you
Can throw in the sea
'Cause I don't want them'

'Eeee now lad, now then, come on lad
Hey it'd take me a long time to throw all the
Money you've got in the sea heh heh, hee hee
Heh heh!'
'Oh I don't know i should never have picked
The guitar up in the first place
I knew what I was doing wrong
I was just trying to turn people on
That's all I was trying to do
But then, yeah, that's just as
Bad as them though, that, isn't it?
Everybody's got to be converted
Everybody must be converted
You've got to belong somewhere
Yeah - well - never mind just get
On with it all I suppose
Just get on with it'

'Eeee lad, I don't know
You're talking a lot of rubbish
Tonight what do you mean?'

There once was a tiny
Very naughty little boy - with a dirty face
His Mummy taught him to be clean and
Tidy and kept him in his place
Father was a man of culture god was
In the sky ready to give chase
There once was a tiny
Very naughty little boy
Who grew into a youth
The Mum and Daddy read the daily horror
The bible was the only truth

They groomed him for the battlefield of
Living in a world of abuse
Once upon a time there was a little
Being kicked out into a seething world
The lies that dear old Mum and Dad so
Innocently fed him with were all unfurled
In ignorance he grew to hate the
Lot he had inherited at birth

Look at the literature under his arm
He is doing his best to impress you
Man of the world and his own daydream
Hero he desperately tries to convert you
But his thoughts they are changing -
And as he looks at himself
He looks at himself

Oh where am I going and what am I doing?
My head is so big and so weary
It's no good me trying to be all the things
That I'm not I'm me and I'm me only
And I've been so greedy
I've always wanted to be and never just been

Not much room for a selfish thought
And yet knowing just that, it becomes one
Not much room for conceit - yet
Knowing that knowing that is conceited
What I am saying now exists not
As words but only as feeling
I'm feeling so la la la la
La la la la-de la la

There once was a time
When I thought you needed me
There once was a time
When I thought I needed you and I was right

You needed me
For the continuance of the race
And all that I was needing was your loving
Why did you deceive me?
Telling me that you had the answer?
Why did you not tell me?
That there wasn't even a question?

Have you ever been absolutely liberated
Just opening your eyes?
Has it ever occurred to your searching
Senses that nothing is disguised?
Have you ever had the feeling that the
Only thing you're living is your life?
Have you ever had the feeling that the only
Thing you're made of is your life?
Have you ever had the feeling that the only
Thing you're made by is your life?
'Aye lad, but I knew you had it in you'