SOJA - Bleed Through lyrics

I keep telling myself this is not in my head
(No, this this seems out of my head man)
Oh losing you, so
The words there not in my head
(This wasn't supposed to happen like this)
I look to the sky
Sometimes just open your lips
(I messed up, I don't think she's
Coming back this time i just, i)
Open your lips

Cause every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast, like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
The words, they bleed through-rough woah
Get back in my arms, they're
Just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you has left me dry
Tell me where you run to
And where do you hide?
You know you never once left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry
For these things that I've done, oh
Tell yourself you you've never seen
The barrel of that gun, no
Tell yourself it's over now and not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry
For what I've done

Cause every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
The words, they bleed through, yeah

Listen while I'm talking
I don't do it too much i can't help feeling
That care between us whatever happened to
The way that it was?
The one thing I can't have is what I want
Who decided that it's
Cold and end up this way?
Who decided that you could not stay?
You won't be here by the end of my day
Cuz I can't even listen
To the words that I say
Cause every time I pick up a pen
Its still you and there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
The words, they bleed through-rough woah

"I swear you never really miss
It till it's half
Gone and you tighten up your grip trying to
Hold on didn't really appreciate it when it's
In your arms and you can relate to every
Word in your song like was I wrong? but
I know I'm right but in hindsight, I
Blame the limelight maybe I just needed
Time to get my mind right
Maybe we'll reconnect
When the times right, I'm trying to think
About the causes was I too bossy- exactly
What the cause is, I was told to step in love
With some caution cuz love and shit is no
Difference in the darkness- ha
But love is where
The heart is and you can see the
Blood as it dripping trough the gauzes
So I guess I fell out of love with her smile
And more in love with applauses"
Its quiet in my house
Your silence is my home
And everything reminds me
That I am all alone
Its quiet where you used to be
And now that youre gone
Its not a sound, is not a word
But a dial tone
Well, it's quiet when I'm drinking
Its quiet when I smoke
Its when I'm eating, oh
And I sleep all alone
Its quiet now, it was louder
Then, I stand still like a stone
Only from my dreams you won't go

Cause every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me
In my mirror, all I can see
Is us two, the pages
Turn so fast, and like all old pages do
The words, they bleed through
The words, they bleed through-rough woah

"how did I get in this predicament was I
Influenced by the bennefit's cuz
I was hitting
On so many chichis, loving you and
Leaving you was the only sentiment but I
Guess I wasn't ready for you cuz I'm
Rubbing your feet, cooking spagheti for you
Taking you to parks, winning teddies for you
But in my heart I'm thinking there's someone
Better for you but my hearts like "no
Not this again cut it out Blach
You know how this'll end"and I swear that
I really was listenning but my
Was yelling and my heart was just
Whispering so your know who
I listened to now my hearts bitching cuz he's
Missing you get my eyes staring at some old
Flitchs of you and my nose swear that still
Smells the scent of you and my soul's saying
"damm, she was meant for you""

Why won't you come back
I'm losing past of myself
I've been wondering, watching
Waiting so long
I've been talking I been listening
I've been writing my songs
I've been haping you've been
Hearing on this radio now
That I'm not with you but, I miss you