XXXTENTACION - IM GONNA DIE SOON lyrics

I'm gonna die soon, and I'm not sure when, I
Can't say goodbye, I don't know how to
If I could than
I never cared, the point is, I'm at the end
I
Can either reach my prime or I can fold now
I've never folded in my life on what
I wanted, but, I'm scared of myself
I've done the craziest things you could
Imagine, I wanna say I've seen it all
But I can't and thats what scares me
I'm scared of myself
What if I get worse than this? what if I
Hurt the people I love
What if I keep on with my
Insanity, I never counted on having
To be insane forever, only momentarily
To achieve what I wanted, I'm scared
I've never been real deal
Scared before, but I wanna cry
I wanna let go, and I'm
Ready, but that "what if" is that
Twinke of light for me, but
It's disappearing, because I'm forcing it
Too, after me, after you
Who's next who else do I have to kill
Who else do
I have to break, I want to end this now
Myself - xxx