Ely Waves - Forever Alone lyrics

So lonely, I can’t take it anymore
So lonely, why you walking out the door?

Listen, you know Boyfifty always
Hit's me different
Long time I've been vibin' with em
Painting pictures of myself
Going shape shifter
I go from confident to hate
Myself in two seconds
I can't function, I don't get this
I'm still nothing, so keep guessing
But the answer to my question
Is a second question
Another lesson never learned
Through adolescence
When we could've just addressed it
Instead of self suppressing
Realizing mid pubescent
I was moving at a lessor pace
Impressionable age i swear I hated myself
My soul was shaded in grey
I just wish I could've loved me
But I haven't since the surgeries
When the doctors tried to murder me
Keep handing me pills
They tried to burden me I'm weak
And I can't even feel
They kept handing me pills
They tried to burden me I'm weak
And I can't even feel i'm so lonely

So lonely, I can’t take it anymore
So lonely, why you walking out the door?

This is genuine the realest shit I ever said
And I was hoping it would show
I’m in my element
I am more than just a flow this
Is my soul inside a page
Filled with all my pain
I’m dying rich or writing broke
My whole entire life that’s all I wanted
Was just to be something cause
Nobody ever believed in me
I had this dream, nobody else seemed to see
I told myself so many times
That it’s etched into me
Like a tattoo, and I ain’t even got one
I ain’t have to
It’s scarred into my heart from living
Life the way I have to
See I’m feeling like I’m standing
On edge of a cliff
But this ain’t a fucking dream
There ain’t no waking up from this
So lonely, I'm giving up i'm giving up

So lonely, I can’t take it anymore
So lonely, why you walking out the door?

And that's the truth
And what hurts the most, was ever loving you
You ripped me down to pieces girl
You broke me into two
And I don't know what I should do
See I'm looking everywhere and
Everywhere I'm seeing you
In my room, in my car
That's why I keep on sleeping on the couch
And I ain't sleeping that much
I've been smoking too much
I'm just tryna numb myself because
I don't wanna feel alive
And that's the truth
And the only place when I can let it loose
Is when I'm rapping in this booth

So lonely, I can’t take it anymore
So lonely, why you walking out the door?

So lonely, I can’t take it anymore
So lonely, why you walking out the door?