Essence - Haze lyrics

Im in a haze, searching for the clarity
It's hard to play
So work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today in case
Tomorrow isn't there for me but, I swear
If you could finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dying to
Take the air from me
Its, suffocation and suffering' patients
A stare at me im, stuck with satan
He's just been waiting to marry me

Commitment's like a buried ring
That I don't dare to find
Others only want it
To flaunt it and say the wear the shine
Eventually they wear the shine
That's when the sun fades
Say my spouse left me
My house is empty on Sundays
Yeah, he took the kids too
I wouldn't kid you now you understand
Why my heart is hard to give you
Why life is hard to live through
Cause I love you
I'm workin' overtime no time
For thinkin' of you- gotta stay ambitious
Get riches is what I must do
If bitches wanna fuck you, I gotta let it go-
Gotta walk it off, not cause us an episode
Or call you on the telephone
Cause I refuse too
Most would call it love, but me
Im too unusual

Im in a haze, searching for the clarity
Its hard to play so work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today incase tomorrow
Isn't there for me but, I swear if you could
Finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dyin to
Take the air for
Its, suffocation and sufferin' patients
A stare at me im stuck with satan he's just
Been waitin to marry me
Im in a haze, searchin for the clarity
Its hard to play so work has been my therapy
Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully
Im grateful for today incase tomorrow
Isn't there for me but, I swear if you could
Finally bear with me
You would find anxiety dying to
Take the air from me

And Im the type to feel
The pressure in excess
I hope this year isn't better than the next
I hope this fear of depression doesn't set
My focus is clear but I can't
Measure my success I guess
Im just unsure how to, the money I make
Won't equal what I amount to
Running in place tryna even
Out profound truths
Trying not to dream while I'm
Sleeping in a sound booth
Wish I could live life sound proof
Sick of all the talking
All too often it could drown out
The beauties of the life that I
Write when I drown out
I keep the secret when Im found out
For now I need an answer
Could you tell me what success is?
The person I become
Or the clothes that I dress in?
Stocks I'll invest in that
Could drop any second
Maybe it's who Im not that
I've got interest in
And is it failure Im afraid of?
Or those I let down when Im
Tryna make my way up
But those who I surround always seem
To take my days up
Then they ain't around when I
Need someone to wait up
So could you tell me what success is?
Looking through the haze, in a daze
Feeling breathless