Essence - What I'm Feelin' lyrics

What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
 the next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess just
What I feel now i'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out

What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out
Every flaw is set back
So how do I strengthen?
I feel my whole set's wack
But they want it lengthened
My role is so small, ocean bottom of plankton
Got my pen set to write
But I'm feelin' so blanked in
The words never sank in, neither did I
That experience was serious, I needed to fly
But yo I'm frail, and I failed
And depleted inside
Who cares if I prevail, I deleted my pride
The view scenic and I've seen it
In the sea of my eye
What do I feel, how do I feel it
Is it real or a lie?
Should I feed it, when I feel it
Should I kill it or not?
I make believe I am the realest
Then I fill in the plot
The whole story's so boring
Yo I'm still in a box
I need to break outta my brain
Get outta the clock
Outta monotony, I'm bored
Yet so much to be done
Second class citizen just diggin'
For that freedom
Nah I won't serve, I swerve, I can't lead 'em
Yeah she got some nerve, those words
She gon' eat 'em well baby let me read 'em
I'm glad to shout it
Let me feel good without feelin' bad about it

What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out

What I'm thinking, what I've thought
What I'm tryna convey
Yo let me drink another shot
So I could finally say
Just what I mean, when I mean it
Nothing subtle to write i'm the daughter
Under water tryna juggle her life
See as a teen, I was serene
And I struggled to fight
'Cause, I was busy catching beams
In my puddle of light
And my peers were drinking beers
I would funnel the sight
Shit am I different, am I queer
Or just the one who is was right?
'Cause, I was thinking all these
Thoughts I was tryna convey
Who was lost, was it me, in this tiny array?
Well if you starving for the thought
I suggest you take the food from it
I could feel something but then
I disapprove of it it grows
And it grows and that is when I bottle it
Feelings try to show so I
Talk myself out of it
'Cause, I don't wanna feel that
It's pain with a pleasure wet when it's dry
It's the rain in the desert
It's strain altogether, rejection
I could taste it i hate it so much
I'll step and stay faceless
Before I ever face it
And maybe that is smart of me
Maybe it's the reason only you could
Take my heart from me
Maybe it has sharpened me
Or maybe it's destructive
Maybe it's the feelin'
If not then tell me what is
Tell me what my gut is, how is it intuitive?
Don't know how to feel
All I know is how to move and live

What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out
What I'm feelin', what I'm feelin'
What I feel right now?
One second I feel depressed
The next I feel proud
In a minute you can't guess
Just what I feel now
I'm just tryna take a step
Back figure myself out