Infinite Joy - Chasing the Light lyrics

I want you to understand that you're mortal
If you're conscious that you have come
With a limited amount of time
You will arrange your life naturally
In a most sensible way
If you think you're immortal
You have time to do stupid things
If you understand you're mortal
You don't have time to do anything other
Than what really matters to you

Every winter it only gets worse
From top to bottom just existing hurts
I wonder what this life is really worth
Doctors give up on the search
They've been sending me from one to the next
God i didn't choose this flesh
I try not to let it get me stressed
But it's hard to feel blessed
When all i see is suffering until death
If that's my future i don't want to have it
Too scared of the cowards way out so i rap it
Give me a few more years
Let me leave these albums
I'll go make my peace
And when it comes to that
You can save your tears
Right now is the only chance we get
Appreciate every second or
Ascend with regrets i try to see every being
As an extension of self
All i ever wanted was to
Be happy and share it
If you are healthy please do not be careless
Re-evaluate your habit's
My flesh feels like a prison i'm trapped in
This life is short lived like the
Flames on a match stick
See i'm all fire, hard wired to calm riots
I might be on a spiritual
Path but i'm not pious
Ain't alive when i'm not spitting or writing
This pain is too much i can't fight it
I've been losing weight yet
Incapable of exercising
Some don't believe me cause
Professionals can't find it
I got no reason to lie trick
Don't you think i'd rather feel great
Than to stare this pain in the
Face everyday and have to say
This is your life don't complain
Make the best out of the
Pressure in your veins
My mother is sick and i can't be of aid
So my brother ends up bearing the weight
I'm so scared of the shame
People ask em what i do for a living
I don't do shit i'm just existing
I get high every night
I feel like a waste of space in this life
I'm just an insect chasing the light
The one thing i'm good at is breaking a mic
These words my only purpose
I've gotta make it worth it
Dedicate this verse to every
Person chronically hurting

And in your life you must be doing only what
Truly matters to you and
Nothing else but that, isn't it?
This you will do only if you're
Conscious that you're a mortal being

See a brother like me is willing to fight
And every time i question death
My only answer is life

9 o'clock, wauw still alive, one big smile
Still alive 10 o'clock
What's wrong with 10 o'clock? still alive
We're fine we're healthy but we could be
Dead tomorrow morning, i'm not wishing it
I will bless you with a long life

I'll make my peace when i reach the light
Here to explore great heights
And kiss the skies and kiss the skies
I'll make my peace when i reach the light
Here to explore great heights
And kiss the skies and kiss the skies
You can save your tears save your tears

Staying healthy comes first
Look at me, things could be worse