NTHN (UK) - Denial lyrics

This party’s just beginning room spinning
Struggling to find my seat
It’s the first time in a while I’ve felt free
Eyes meet so I’m trying to control myself
Knowing my reactions aren’t as quick
As they should be

Lift a different bottle off the shelf
Following distractions eyes heavy
Feet stumbling
Hands trace the wall that’s supporting me
Forcing my endorphins to perform for me
I might regret this in the morning but for
Now I’ll keep ignoring my own conscience
The consequences of a temporary fix
Alleviating stresses with depressants
Still it doesn’t take me long to
Forget and take another sip
Already gaining confidence
I wash away all inhibitions

Hide all the signs
In denial of the state I’m in
Desensitised every time I extend my limit's
And I extend my limit's every time
But tomorrow I’ll be falling
From tonight’s high