Polearm - paint lyrics

I’m sick of crying
Sick of feeling frustrated
I lose the words as soon as I try to take it
I’m tryna make it, sick of feeling sedated
Stare at my phone
Wondering if you gon’ say "Yes"
I wish it didn’t take me so
Much effort to say this
I’m never thinking about if I’ll be famous
Too busy stressing 'bout the day
By the day shit

I could picture many things there no
More reason to paint it
If you wanna take my heart from me
Could you make it painless?
Still gotta eat, can’t choose the silver
It stainless
So much for discrete
But you won’t tell me you hate this
It’s so hard for me to sleep
I pace around likе i’m brainless

Threw a rose in thе abyss
You let me leave alive
Through the gap in the orchard
I see the end of time
I’m frozen, something’s coming out the swamp
It always finds me every time I run
(Put my foot down like
I’m poppin' the clutch)
Feels like I'm fighting for the knife
That’s buried deep in the mud
Leaving soon as there’s nothing
Left you can take
It's always better than getting
Burned at the stake