Blackwinterwells, 8485, ​i9bonsai - ​mixd up lyrics

(My little bonsai planet)

Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me
But really at what cost now?

Hearts beatin' out my chest
But I'm locked in
I just really wanna live, what did I walk it?
I've been feelin' like a mess
I think I lost it i won't even say a word
There's no more talkin'

Lost it all, but I'll make it back
I'm losin' time, yeah, I'm losin' track
Don't know why I fuckin' laugh
It's overwhelming, yeah, I can't do that

Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me
But really at what cost now?

I'm mixed up, confused
Don't know me, or you
No one knows me like you do
Spent my whole life confused
Yeah, blend it up like a smoothie
Mix all of my guts into bit's
Then consume me in the wired, like I'm Gumi
Disappearing act, if I owe you something
Sue me
I'm disaffected, unscrew my head a bit
Papers are so ripped
There's no proof that I still exist
But I still bleed though
So much I'll stain you
Lady Macbeth on your hands then replace you

It's a risk and I don't
Think I wanna take it
Think I'm in cause I'm convincing
When I fake it
But I know by the time that I make it
To the start of the line
Won't race 'cause I can't win
Can't escape, but can't begin
Way too late and stretched too thin
Faults are breaking on my skin
I'm so scared, I'll never try
No one's there, so why should I be?
I don't care, no, I won't cry
Sit and stare while it goes by me

Head's mixed up, I gotta go now
I can barely think, I think I gotta watch out
Gotta get up, no I can't stay down
They been testin' me
But really at what cost now?

Hearts beatin' out my chest
But I'm locked in
I just really wanna live, what did I walk it?
I've been feelin' like a mess
I think I lost it i won't even say a word
There's no more talkin'