Tropes - ​what we had is dead lyrics

I miss it all, I want it all back
But I can't keep depending on the fallback
And when I fall they don’t catch me
But I crawl back
I don't look good in anything that's
Not an all black outfit, shout it
Shout it all so they can hear it like
Found it
They look at you ’cause they believe the lie
Crowded
Like a common mental state of mine, doubt it
'Cause I couldn't live without it

Too many wicks to light
Whatever works is aight
The pain is all on me
But it feels worse tonight
They say that nothing's changed
But they ain't ever right
I just say shit now
'cause it feels worse to write it down
Now I feel like a guy who can't get around
I got so many times that I've found
The answers to my problems but
I just turn around, ignore them
I don’t care ’cause the music's not for them
I do it for myself, I’m staying dormant
And I work damn hard for my portion
Get a call and ignore it
I feel worse than ever (I tried it all)
I bind together (I want it all for myself)
Hate the weather (I want it overcast)
But I never brought myself
To write that letter

I miss it all, I want it all back
But I can't keep depending on the fallback
And when I fall they don't catch me
But I crawl back
I don't look good in anything that’s
Not an all black outfit, shout it
Shout it all so they can hear it like
Found it they look at you 'cause
They believe the lie, crowded
Like a common mental state of mine, doubt it
'Cause I couldn't live without it