Abstract, YONAS, Ivan B - Hyperventilating lyrics

17 with a pen and a pad
Writing out my life making sense of my past
Tryna find the light through a sensitive mask
I don't take it off till
I'm deep in a track
Speaking to myself just reflecting
Off of the page
Who knew the passive kid was just
Good at passing the rage
Off into a song so it
Couldn't live in the cage
That sat upon his shoulders just
Hiding behind his face
Back when it was simple, before it
Was a job, before the expectations
Before I knew the odds
Back when it was just a broken
Heart I had to fix
Now I'm scared that I've been broken
Since I made a couple hit's
Fans want me to fly but they
Keep me on a leash
Fears of losing me to a
Level that they can't reach
This the life I chose and they
Tell me that I'm a beast
But all I wanted was the beauty
All I'm searching for is peace

Can someone help me catch my breathe
My heart is beating out my chest
Hyperventilating
I thought I was waiting
On someone to save me
But I'm finding lately
All I can count on to not drive me crazy
Is being right here for the
Person who needs me
But holding myself up it ain't been to easy

They give me pain then I elevate
Replicate the feeling When I meditate
Can't find my state of mind
When I'm out of state
If I take a break
I'ma break
Overthink
When I don't wanna think
Wash my thoughts
I don't wanna sink in them
Pointing out my fears
Like what you think of them
Counting out the years
Like What you leave in them
Dropping every classic
How you sleep on him
How you sleep on him
Lately I've been keeping a secret
Of always feeling defeated
Feelin the Blisters on my feet I see
Y'all kicking your feet up
Don't call me to kick it
I'm on a track
I don't mean a meet up
If you ain't working
You're working to keep up
Can't see me
I'll Sia (Aye)
Out of breath
I've been a mess
Too many choices
Been a guess
Overworking cause
I know the waters coming
For the neck
Doing more
And feeling less
Is that a recipe
I'll test
Looking out the window
Got a question for the blessed

Can someone help me catch my breathe
My heart is beating out my chest
Hyperventilating
I thought I was waiting
On someone to save me
But I'm finding lately
All I can count on to not drive me crazy
Is being right here for the
Person who needs me
But holding myself up it ain't been to easy

Truth be told, I've been awake
I went from starving to having the
Competition on my dinner plate
And I don't say that to intimidate
I just want these gimmicky rappers to
Step aside so I can innovate
I built my whole studio
Inside my living space
So I'm right at home with
The lyricism I illustrate
I give people their flowers while
They can smell 'em
And not a minute late cuz
Then they start to disintegrate
Rose pedals, and falsettos
They never really make it
To these dark ghetto's
So Air Jordan's, and Margiela's
In Dark yellow
Will shield me from the rain
When the storm settles damn
It ain't been easy, but I'm fine with that
I put my heart into this music
It's forever where you'll find me at
I'm in the future looking back at
This rap like an artifact
Tryna remember just where I started at