Against Me! - Disgust lyrics

It's not just my imagination that I
Got a gun to my head
Cause, I can feel the cold metal and
I can smell the gun powder

I know they got their sights on me and it's
Not just paranoia that makes
Me think this way
I know they got their plan for me
I know they got a grave for me
They want me to admit defeat
They want me to show my fear they
Know their system's going to break me
It's crushed countless before me

I stand here and try to look out into
The dark vastness that is my future
Unfortunately I can't see shit
There are clouds and there seems to
Be layers to the sky
It's all just too unknown
I waste time wanting to know what will happen
How will it end

But, I never want to reach that day when I
No longer have a need for that curiosity
I don't want to know the end to this "movie"
Shouldn't I be living yet? Shouldn't I know
Where I'm headed by now I
Have millions of dreams and things I
Want to do with this life
But, I barely have time to do
The little I do now
It's not satisfaction I get relaxing at
The end of the day
It's escape from the stress
Disgust that I'm already
In bed waiting to go to sleep again
Wasn't I just here? Didn't this just happen?
I can't say I know what
Will happen tomorrow t
He higher meaning that I'm looking for
Did not show it'self today