Against Me! - Searching for a Former Clarity lyrics

No, the doctors didn't tell you
That you were dying
They just collected their money and
Sent you on your way
But, you knew all along
Went on pretending nothing was wrong
You said I will keep my focus until the end

And in the journal you kept by
The side of your bed
You wrote nightly an aspiration of
Developing as an author
Confessing childhood secrets of dressing
Up in women's clothes
Compulsions you never knew the reasons to

Will everyone you ever meet or love
Be just a relationship based
On a false presumption?
Despite everyone you ever meet or ever love
In the end, will you be all alone?

As the disease spread slowly
Through your body
Pumped by your heart to the tips
Of your arms and your legs
Your greatest fear was that
Your mind wouldn't last
The coherency and alertness would be
The first things to fade

As your hair thinned, as the weight fell off
As your teeth blackened
As the lesions spotted your skin
As you fell to your knees in
The center of the stage
As you offered witness to mortality in
Exchange for the ticket price
As the lights blended into
The continuing noise
As all hope was finally lost
Adrenaline carried one last
Thought to fruition:

Let this be the end
Let this be the last song
Let this be the end let all be forgiven