AJJ - Big Bird lyrics

I'm afraid of the way that I live my life
I'm afraid of the way I don't
I'm afraid of the things that I
Wanna do but I won't

I'm afraid of God i'm afraid to believe
And I'm afraid of all the loved
Ones that I made leave
I'm afraid that my dog
Doesn't love me anymore

I'm afraid of the social laziness
That let Kitty Genovese die
And I'm afraid of the mob mentality
That makes otherwise normal people go blind
I'm afraid of the way the world works
And I'm afraid of the words in my notebooks
I'm afraid that you all know
That I am a pervert

But the Big Red Bird that
Lives under the city
Doesn't give a damn about me
And it dies every night by burning alive

I'm afraid of my grandfather's cancer
And I'm afraid of my mom's dying arm
I'm afraid that I've somehow
Caused my family harm
I'm afraid that the ones I
Love won't have enough
I'm afraid that the ones I
Love won't have enough

It's harder to be yourself
Than it is to be anybody else
I wish I were a little less of a coward
But the Big Red Bird that
Lives under the city
Doesn't give a damn about me
And it dies every night so I bought a knife
I am a knife i am a Knife Man