AK - Rock Bottom lyrics

Feel like I'm at rock bottom
Not a dollar in my pocket
Every time I feel okay
I just point me to all my problems
Why the fuck can't I just stop
It? It's so fucking toxic
How could I wanna be okay so
Badly and still make no progress?
And some days are worse than others, I admit
(rock bottom) I'm there for you of course
But, I'm who I forget (rock bottom)
I never show up for myself
It might seem like I'm doing well
But, you'd dodge me if I ever let you in
(rock bottom)

Put my life in God's hands and pray
To him that he don't drop it
At this point I feel so heartless
Blame the life I'm stuck in, fuck this
No one ever would survive if my


Road was what they walking
Why the fuck would I tell someone
Let my problems be my problems?
That's my issue from the jump
I never talk about shit
Throughout my life I never
Thought that anybody'd understand
Then I picked the microphone up and
I got it off my chest
And found so many people fighting demons too
Now I'm with them
It's us against the world now I know
What this 'bout 'cause I know how it
Be when the lights go down
And the thoughts come out
Feel like no way out and
You just can't breathe
Tryna get calmed down but your eyes ball
Out till you feel like you're drowning
In all of your tears till you fall asleep
Then you wake from dreams and you
Feel like shit 'cause it's make-believe
And then it's fuck it, I'm done
I'm going back to sleep
Don't wake me up if you see the sun
That's my biggest enemy
Give me time, I'll figure it
Out, no really, I'm fine
Don't think I need any help
Just let me rot 'cause it ain't like I

Feel like I'm at rock bottom
(fuck) not a dollar in my pocket
Every time I feel okay
I just point me to all my problems
Why the fuck can't I just stop
It? It's so fucking toxic
How could I wanna be okay so
Badly and still make no progress?
And some days are worse than others, I admit
(rock bottom) I'm there for you of course
But, I'm who I forget (rock bottom)
I never show up for myself
It might seem like I'm doing well
But, you'd dodge me if I ever let you in
(rock bottom)

What's it like getting outta bed
Rubbing the crust outta your
Eyes and feeling refreshed?
Last night I went to bed around seven PM
Woke up at noon feeling tired
Mad it happened again
I woke up, goddamn it, now I gotta get up
Acting like I'm fine
Let my face show motivation while
This hell invades my mind
Embrace the struggles, that's what makes you
But what happens when you try and they become
The closest thing to your
Existence? Sick of trying
What's the point if it's a cycle
That I know all too well?
Maybe the fact it's consistent gives
Me comfort in it's hell
I made friends with the monsters even
Though I hate how it feels
They're all I've known for so long
It makes it so hard to rebel
But, if I keep believing maybe
One day something will change
I only try 'cause dying means my
Name will carry that shame
I have a family that loves me even
If I can't say the same
About myself, so time will tell if I get out
I

Feel like I'm at rock bottom
Not a dollar in my pocket
Every time I feel okay
I just point me to all my problems
Why the fuck can't I just stop
It? It's so fucking toxic
How could I wanna be okay so
Badly and still make no progress?
And some days are worse than others, I admit
(rock bottom) I'm there for you of course
But, I'm who I forget (rock bottom)
I never show up for myself
It might seem like I'm doing well
But, you'd dodge me if I ever let you in
(rock bottom)