Akira The Don, Theo Von - Never Felt OK lyrics
[Akira The Don, Theo Von - Never Felt OK lyrics]
So high school went on
And God gave me some good gifts
And I was a storyteller
You know, I was always concerned though, like
You know
I always needed to be around more people
Where everything was always starting to be
You know, we need to change this
We need to do that
I'd go to a party and then I
Have to go to another party, like
Where's the party? Well, we're at the party
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
And things weren't bad, I had some
Great times, I was fun, i was having fun
But on the inside, I was
I didn't know who I was at all
I didn't have any beliefs
I didn't have any real values
And how I felt about me was based
Upon how you felt about me
And when I was fourteen I got emancipated
You know, I couldn't live at
Me family's home anymore
My brother had moved away to
Live with my grandparents
And he and I weren't close
After he moved away, you know
I've spent a lot of time
In our room by myself
And it made me, I think
Real sad because my brother's bed was in
There and my bed was in there
You know, and every kind of, like, year
Every six months
He would say, you know, or my mom would say
"he might come back and live with us again"
And he didn't come back you know
And I don't fault him for it or anything
He, you know
He had his own walk with our environment
He needed to find a place for him to be well
And he's gotten very well over the years
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
And anyhow, so, it all, like
I was just in this room
And I wanted things to be different
And I was a scared kid, you know
And this is before I moved out of my mother's
Home and I just remember being really scared
I wanted to i remember being at night, uh
You know our neighbor was scary
And it was just
We grew up like it was kinda poor white and
Poor black was like right over from us
And it was just, you know, it was scary
I mean, people get real impoverished
Like things get scary and I was just scared
And at night I would dude, I was a scared kid
I remember, like I would wet
The bed all the time, you know?
And I remember one time when I was
Young I heard that if an
Animal had urinated somewhere
Then other animals
Couldn't come and get that animal
So, I remember at that
Point sometimes I would
Urinate off my bed and around my
Bed in a big circle at night so
That things couldn't come get me
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt
Um, you know I was just
Creating this crazy, like
World inside of me that was a lot of fear
And there was a lot of
Uncertainty and there was not
A lot of systems inside of myself
To make myself feel okay
And God gave me some good gifts
And I was a storyteller
You know, I was always concerned though, like
You know
I always needed to be around more people
Where everything was always starting to be
You know, we need to change this
We need to do that
I'd go to a party and then I
Have to go to another party, like
Where's the party? Well, we're at the party
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
And things weren't bad, I had some
Great times, I was fun, i was having fun
But on the inside, I was
I didn't know who I was at all
I didn't have any beliefs
I didn't have any real values
And how I felt about me was based
Upon how you felt about me
And when I was fourteen I got emancipated
You know, I couldn't live at
Me family's home anymore
My brother had moved away to
Live with my grandparents
And he and I weren't close
After he moved away, you know
I've spent a lot of time
In our room by myself
And it made me, I think
Real sad because my brother's bed was in
There and my bed was in there
You know, and every kind of, like, year
Every six months
He would say, you know, or my mom would say
"he might come back and live with us again"
And he didn't come back you know
And I don't fault him for it or anything
He, you know
He had his own walk with our environment
He needed to find a place for him to be well
And he's gotten very well over the years
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
And anyhow, so, it all, like
I was just in this room
And I wanted things to be different
And I was a scared kid, you know
And this is before I moved out of my mother's
Home and I just remember being really scared
I wanted to i remember being at night, uh
You know our neighbor was scary
And it was just
We grew up like it was kinda poor white and
Poor black was like right over from us
And it was just, you know, it was scary
I mean, people get real impoverished
Like things get scary and I was just scared
And at night I would dude, I was a scared kid
I remember, like I would wet
The bed all the time, you know?
And I remember one time when I was
Young I heard that if an
Animal had urinated somewhere
Then other animals
Couldn't come and get that animal
So, I remember at that
Point sometimes I would
Urinate off my bed and around my
Bed in a big circle at night so
That things couldn't come get me
Something never felt okay never felt okay
I just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay i never felt okay
Never felt okay i just never felt okay
I always felt like I was
Trying to make things okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt okay
Something never felt
Um, you know I was just
Creating this crazy, like
World inside of me that was a lot of fear
And there was a lot of
Uncertainty and there was not
A lot of systems inside of myself
To make myself feel okay