Alan Poe - Life's A Bitch But Then You Die letra de (lyrics)

If I try and find religion will I find faith?
If I try and find my vision
Will I find my fate?
If I go to church to seek some wisdom
Will I feel my soul set aflame?
Are these the words of a saint with a past
Or a sinner seeking a future in vain?
Are we destined to repeat the same mistakes
Time and time again at every
Turn like a broken tape or take
What we carry inside in stride?
Questions that I ask myself as
I drive through the night alone in my mind
Alone in my thoughts, alone in my ride
All alone in my life
My silhouette the only friend
I've known all along
He's along for the drive but even he don't
Know if I'll make it home alive tonight
'Cuz the way that life's been
Going lately it's kinda crazy
I'm being driven to the edge word to Stan
I just want to jump off the deep end
And be done with this once and for all
And I feel so ashamed to complain
But, I can't front no more with
A fake smile that isn't mine and baby
If you don't mind laying here for a while
You could be the reason to
Keep me here tonight
Let it be known before I die
That I tried with every ounce of
Strength bled from my veins
I've been strong for so long I
Forgot what weakness felt like
I've been strong for so long that I left a
Permanent stain in the way you look at life
And the rest a blind spot or at least I hope
Alcohol turned to blood through every slice
Turned to love every time
An addict with no remedy but the knife
Seeking peace with a blade
A paradox as I take a piece to the brain
I aim with one in the chamber
I've been ready to end this life
Going out like Kurt Cobain
Taking shots to the head but
Before I pull the trigger i ask myself

What's a God to a non believer?
Will suicides go to heaven
Or never rest in hell? I could die right now
Jump in the flames and disappear forever
If that's the case then I'll make
My case to make my
Last moment the best ever before
The bullet casing takes over
The last one to last forever
(The last one to last forever)

Am I a coward if don't do it sober?
The constant struggle between
My hemispheres has been the only thing that
Keeps me here
'Cuz as soon as I stop fighting I'll
Find serenity and end this fear
(I'll find serenity and end this fear)
I'm plagued by demons
So I try and drown them in a pool of liquor
Try to suffocate them in bottles and
Smoke, but that's not the antidote
They resurface and breathe out the most
No matter how much I try
I don't believe the struggle is worth it
If the means are justified by the end
Then I can't find a reason to still pretend
If I put my faith in myself, does that make
Me a sinner, a non believer, a demon
Unfaithful
Does the end really justify the means
Intricate thoughts I have as I go to sleep
Seeking but never finding peace in my dreams
They're a cruel joke
Nightmares, and night terrors
No rest for the wicked
Hoping if I rest that I never rise and wake
Putting my life at stake with
A bottle of pills hoping hoping hoping
Chasing
As crafty as he is he evades my chase
Instead her cursed lips come
And take his place
His cousin seducing me to lay my
Head down once and for all
A cold whisper at the edge of
My pillow says it all:
"Just close your eyes, and it'll be alright"
She loves to crawl in my bed
And make love to me she's in love with me
She loves me unconditionally, and so do I
Life's a bitch but then you die

And you find the most beautiful flower
Fair and without prejudice she takes
Us all the same, and that's why I love her
My Soul Mate my Last Lover
My grave will be a modest totem
To the life I've led i'm ready