Alvin Cedric - Be Still and Know lyrics

Sometimes I look up at the sky
And wonder where You are
Sometimes it's like the pain inside of me is
Going way too far

I just need to hear Your voice, God
I just got no other choice,  God
I wanna be where You are
But now I'm feeling way too
Far apart from You
I still keep moving on, that's true
But it ain't what You want me to do
I need to wait on You to move
I'm feeling pictures in my
Mind keep coming up like what if my life was
Like this, like that, It's too much
I'm sick of all those thoughts
I've had enough
But I guess it's just a chapter
In life for growing up
I got tons of questions I wish
I could ask for answers
'Cause the deepest pain in parts of
Me are not yet answered
Is this my calling Father or
Should I not bother? Am I the only one in
This world that feels forgotten?

Sometimes I look up at the sky
And wonder where You are
Sometimes it's like the pain inside of
Me is taking it too far i'm vulnerable
I need You to heal my broken heart
I wanna talk to You much more but
I just don't know where to start

I been through a lot of things
I don't like to talk about
'Cause every time I do
I feel my heart weigh down
I feel my heart break, yeah
And for me it's a lot to take
And when I look back, when I reflect
I so wish it was fake
In my life I took some falls
I got up but still got the scars
The other day I felt so
Far like You never existed, Nah
Apparently You forgive but I
Don't feel forgiven
Apparently You give freedom but
I still feel imprisoned
Can You make me new and help
Me to believe in You?
'Cause everything I did and do
You probably would never approve
To say what's real for me
I would be so uncomfortable
So I cover it up and act
So fake like nothing happened, No
I'm lost and I need Your
Direction to guide me home
But I just don't feel courage
So I remain alone
I know I'm undeserving of Your love
So i sit down and cry
I never realized every time I
Do You dry my eyes

Sometimes I look up at the sky
And wonder where You are
Sometimes it's like the pain inside of
Me is taking it too far i'm vulnerable
I need You to heal my broken heart
I wanna talk to You much more but
I just don't know where to start

You say You died for me but
I guess I missed the point
You said You I can live but
Right now I just trip
Don't mean to disappoint but right
Now I'm out of joint
That's why I don't call you back or
Send you texts saying where I'm at
I been through some stuff a lot
Of people can relate to
But I think I'm the only one who's
Full of anger because of it
Because what's happened back in time
I believe I'm the only who isn't moving
On but staying on the same line
A lot of "what if's" but I
Need to let them go
And trust in You to lead me down
A path that I don't know
Wanted to walk this road myself at first
Was tripping off my ego
With You though You lead the
Way and carry me there, None compares

Sometimes I look up at the sky
And wonder where You are
Sometimes it's like the pain inside of
Me is taking it too far i'm vulnerable
I need You to heal my broken heart
I wanna talk to You much more but
I just don't know where to start

Sometimes I look up at the sky
And wonder where You are
Sometimes it's like the pain inside of
Me is going way too far

Be still and know that You are near
All this time, You were with me
You ain't disappeared
I was feeling so cold inside
But now I realize You were always on my side