Andi - Don't Deserve This lyrics

Time of the excuses
Weren't supposed to lose this
It was just for fun
And now you're holding the gun
I'm left with these bruises on my heart

How did we get here?
Wasted three and a half years
All those stupid games
That I didn't wanna pay
Now I can't take down these walls

If I try
I don't wanna be the reason
Blame it on the changing seasons
It's not my fault, after all
Not my fault

Oh, I can't blame you for leaving
I was wrong for mistreating you, baby
I was wrong
Now my heart can go on, oh
I don't deserve this
Oh, oh, uh
Ah, ah, ah
Oh, oh, oh

It was on my birthday
Didn't think it'd be the worst day
No, "How did your day go?"
Or simply just "hello"

How can I ever love again?

I don't wanna be the reason
Blame it on the changing seasons
It's not my fault, after all
Not my fault

Oh, I can't blame you for leaving
I was wrong for mistreating you, baby
I was wrong
Now my heart can go on, oh
I don't deserve this
Oh, oh, uh
Ah, ah, ah
Oh, oh, oh

In my car
I'm crying in the Homeway parking lot
Tryna keep myself together
With everything I've got
It's not working
Oh, maybe I deserve this