Angel Olsen - How Many Disasters lyrics

Living out my life as though I
Knew how it was done
I have sat upon many a hillside in the sun
Same old feelings have their way
Of coming back around makes me wonder why I
Ever bother leaving town

All that time I was trying to be clever
Didn't know that I'd be loving you forever
All the years I spent chasing a meaning
How unfair to have a
Heart that's still beating
When I can't just love
A moment that's fleeting
When I can't just love
A moment that's fleeting

How many disasters will it take
To make you smile?
Haven't seen you laughing at yourself
In quite a while
People that you love that never
Learn how to speak with
Sometimes what you don't gain
It's another kind of gift

All that time I was trying to be clever
Didn't know that I'd be loving you forever
All the years I spent chasing a meaning
How unfair to have a
Heart that's still beating
How unfair to have a
Heart that's still beating
How unfair to have a
Heart that's still beating