ANTIVST - Hard to love lyrics

I don’t really like that
If I broke your heart now
Would you break it right back
'Cause I don’t really like that
I don’t really like that
I just wanna fight back i want you to use me
Mentally abuse me
You’re not really like that
And I don’t really like that
You’re not what I’m used to
I Can’t see through you i don’t wanna feel
But I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t really like that
No I don’t really like that
I don’t really like that
Nothing but a nerve rack
Why don’t you run from me
Leave me to the train tracks
You’re not really like that
And I don’t wanna like that
You are the shy boy praying to thе sky boy
I am the bad girl just like her dad girl
Why do you want mе 'Cause nobody wants me
Did you read the label i have the baggage
I’ve got depression and my lungs are ashes
I’m not the package not even average
It’s crazy how my life goes
You don’t know the story though
Boy that I loved stomped on my heart so
I guess I am cold now
At least that’s what I’m told now
If you wanna love me you need patience
You need strength and a permanent vacation
My safe haven
I guess that’s what I’m craving
There’s a hole in my soul
Where someone used to be and
My anxieties are always watching me
And I need some saving
Am I what you’re craving
Just know that I won’t hurt you
If I do It’s not true look me in eyes and
Tell me I don’t want you
'Cause you know I want you
I’m just scared to love you
If I were to love you there’d be fire
Cities would burn and I’d be your sire
Until you get tired they always get tired
Don't throw me away
Like I’m one of your toys
And Don’t act too different in
Front of your boys just fill my void
Will you bring me joy