As I Lay Dying - Torn Between lyrics

Pulled both ways, but still suspended
The worst of each, reduced and blended
Still suspended, suspended

I thought I was stuck between two worlds
Because I was not willing to let go
Recklessly pulled both ways
But somehow still suspended
The worst of each, reduced and blended
But as life unfolded, I realized
The momentum to drift from side to side
Came from within, came from inside

I feel torn between two hearts dying
But I'll trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?

One heart turned black
The other blue and bruised
Arms breaking, arms breaking from the dreams
Dreams shattered
The dreams that I can't reach
There has to be
There has to be a choice I have not seen

I feel torn between two hearts dying
But I'll trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?
I feel torn between two hearts dying
But I'll trade them in for one

One darkened over time burning away the shame
Erasing hidden insights I did not
Want to be seen
The other was beaten from being exposed
So it hurt less to never hold it close

I feel torn between two hearts dying
But I'll trade them in for one
Broken and exposed, collapsing
So why would I hold on?
I feel torn between two hearts dying
But I'll trade them in for one
So why would I hold on? I'll
Trade them in for one

Neither heart had power to fill my veins
Or be the source of who I want to be
Pulled both ways, but still suspended