Atreyu - Slow Burn lyrics

It begins with a dark, glowing ember
Something black burning it's way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel
Scars, all I see

Oh, no, the fire's burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason
Leaving only ashes left
You will catch me regretting my decision

I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes

I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
What I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

That is how I chose to
Douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout
Memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me
Shakes me to the bone (To the bone)
I know it’s over
But I can’t go home tonightSlow Burn
But after this
I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain
And yet I’m still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic
Urging backward thought
My life’s a mess and I can’t
Find a way to fix it

I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes
(My eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What I see (What I see)
I don't want to believe (Want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead

Calling, calling out (Calling out)
The darkest reaches of my soul
Are riddled with self doubt
Crawling, crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice
When others would lay down
It’s only as dark as you make it

I know (I know)
That it's killing me (It's killing me)
And it's poisoning (It's poisoning)
The best of me (The best of me)
What I see (What I see)
I don't want to believe (Want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead