Azahriah, Lovegnarly - Despair lyrics

Fuckin’ up myself like hey ya, like hey ya
Standing silent in the corner
Lookin’ at the city,  hey ya, like hey ya
I hate the fuckin’ system when I’m sober
I just keep runnin’ from
The things that never mattered anyway
They will be tryin’ to get over
That tomorrow passed away i will be the one
That they will call a bloody miracle
They will follow the dirty
Footsteps in the snow
Comin’ and goin’ away like hey ya
Like hey ya
Being all alone in a room is what I want
"Gimme’ that, gimme’ that", that’s
What they want, from day one
But it seems so impossible to do

They ask me if I’m sad or
Am I angry at myself, i don't know
Should I run away or break down?
I do not have a clue but I stay
You promise me that you’ll be
Always by my side
Like on that Saturday night
On that Saturday night if the time is right
I’ll build a pretty boat
Sail throughout the night, in every syllable
Hide and seek, I’ll hide
Behind your pretty lies
And if you’d look for me
I’d die in the night

Fuckin’ up myself like hey ya, like hey ya
Standing silent in the corner
Lookin’ at the city, hey ya, like hey ya
I hate the fuckin’ system when I’m sober
I just keep runnin’ from the
Things that never mattered anyway
They will be tryin’ to get
Over that tomorrow passed away
I will be the one
That they will call a bloody miracle
They will follow the dirty
Footsteps in the snow
Comin’ and goin’ away like hey ya
Like hey ya
Being all alone in a room is what I want
"Gimme’ that, gimme’ that", that’s
What they want, from day one
But it seems so impossible to do

I keep that dirty mindset that you gave
I feed that with the purest form of hate
I need that, need that body that you have
To read that language no one’s ever read
Blood is on the palace
And I know that what it feels like
Explosion in your head and you keep
Lookin’ for the green light
Yes, I want a Patek and a Bentley
I’ve been dreamin’ ‘bout it
Sun and the moon and the lies
Switching sides it’s time to wake up

Fuckin’ up myself like hey ya, like hey ya
Standing silent in the corner
Lookin’ at the city, hey ya, like hey ya
I hate the fuckin’ system when I’m sober
I just keep runnin’ from the
Things that never mattered anyway
They will be tryin’ to get
Over that tomorrow passed away
I'll be the one
That they will call a bloody miracle
They will follow the dirty
Footsteps in the snow
Comin’ and goin’ away like hey ya
Like hey ya
Being all alone in a room is what I want
"Gimme’ that, gimme’ that" that’s
What they want, from day one
But it seems so impossible to do