Bilmuri - Connect lyrics

I can't seem to hold on to reality
'Cause these thoughts keep moving me
I'm stuck in my feelings
Trying to keep my life from
Falling to this hole
I dug myself beneath the ground

Don't want to push you away
But sometimes it feels like I
Was made that way
I want to break them off today
'Cause I'm not alright and it's not okay

All theses years these scars remain
I pull them open just to fell the same
It's so hard to resist and hard to refrain
Throw this smile on and try to maintain

I can't understand why no one
Knows me like you do
And why my life won't seem to move

I can't understand when I try to push
You away when you've done nothing
But love me

Don't want to push you away
But sometimes it feels like
I was made that way
I want to break them off today
'Cause I'm not alright and it's not okay

All theses years these scars remain
I pull them open just to fell the same
It's so hard to resist and hard to refrain
Throw this smile on and try to maintain

I see you standing on the edge
Of this ledge trying to find me
I hate who I am, cause I almost left you
And fell away

All theses years these scars remain
I pull them open just to fell the same
It's so hard to resist and hard to refrain
Throw this smile on and try to maintain