BLESSED - Swimming In Anxiety lyrics

I'm tryna find my way out
Time and money, two things I don't play 'bout
I find it funny when they say I changed up
Yeah, I did for the better
I was down, had to get up
Fake friends only call you when they need you
See you doing good is when they see you
Where were you when I was in the deep blue?
Drowning in my thoughts, underneath it all

I was swimming in anxiety
Praying that I find my peace
Further than my arms can reach
Feeling like I'm lost at sea
Swimming in anxiety
And some nights I can't sleep
And some days I don't eat
But I know it's up to me
To find my peace, to find my peace

Pray I'm walking on water
Came from the gutter
Scars all on my face, like I'm Harry Potter
Hurt too many times, still won't hurt another
Now I don't have no friends
Just brothers and lovers
Gotta protect all of my energy
I'm a rare breed
No wonder why they branded me (For real)
I'll succeed and surpass their limitations
I'm not a racist, but I need segregation
From all the fake shit fake ass commentators
Push me to the edge, I'll be catching cases
Mmhmm she want me for my status, mmhmm
I need more than fake love
I've been sinking in the deep end
The world is so cold, got my freezing
There's a ice box where my heart used to be
Icebox got my chain glistening

I'm tryna find my way out
Time and money, two things I don't play 'bout
I find it funny when they say I changed up
Yeah, I did for the better
I was down, had to get up
Fake friends only call you when they need you
See you doing good is when they see you
Where were you when I was in the deep blue?
Drowning in my thoughts, underneath it all

I was swimming in anxiety
Praying that I find my peace
Further than my arms can reach
Feeling like I'm lost at sea
Swimming in anxiety
And some nights I can't sleep
And some days I don't eat
But I know it's up to me
To find my peace, to find my peace