Brother Ali - Out of Here lyrics

Okay so it might appear
To an outsider that you found your
Way up out of here
They're saying you died of suicide
That's the last thing I want to hear
They tell me that it's hardly
Fair to blame myself
What a hell of a cross to bare
You didn't say it in your letter
But the fact that I failed
You is loud and clear
Found out the amount of fear
You would drown when you found yourself
Naked staring down a mirror
And partners are supposed to
Lay the cards bare
I left you playing solitaire
And I promise you that I'm sincere
If you're looking for some judgment
You won't find it here let's be honest here
I can't say I've never known
That kind of despair
When the clouds appear, how's life fair
I just want to draw you near
Not to make it about me
But how could you check out
Before you really allowed me a chance
To sit down and hear?
I think I would've listened
Or were you saying it all along
And I just missed it?
You sang your swan song, we all dismissed it
Because you filled the room with laughter
I watched when you thought no
One was looking at you
In hind sight, I wonder where your smile went
When the party ended and you swallowed it
I saw you swallow it

Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
How many cries soak through your disguise
Before you drown in your silent tears?
Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
How many times can you fight for your life
Before you throw that white
Flag up and volunteer?

Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
How many cries soak through your disguise
Before you drown in your silent tears?
Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
How many times can you fight for your life
Before you throw that white
Flag up and volunteer?

I've had car accidents
Where everything is slow motion no
Matter how fast it's happening
Every second that pass stretches so that
You can watch it unraveling
But can't always react to it
Your whole life might flash before your eyes
The minute when you transition
To the other side
But what can actually happen in that time?
In-between the leaping and the
Moment you collide
In-between the trigger and the blast
In-between you let go of the
Wheel and you crash
In-between the moment when you swallow the
Last pill in the bottle turn out the lights
Roll the dice on tomorrow
Is there a moment to reflect
Can there be regret?
Is there a wait not yet, let me reset?
Or is it just too painful to accept?
That maybe death just seemed best

Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
If you not winning, you can go down swinging
Even if it doesn't feel
Like they're fighting fair
Okay so it might appear
That you took yourself up out of here
I'm trying not to resent you
But, you left me defenseless in
The life we share

Every man before me in my fam
Died by his own hands
How am I supposed to understand my
Own role in the plan
When nobody who grows old stands a chance?
What about this mysterious dance
Made you cut the cord to
The curtain in advance?
But these are questions I can only ask
The person looking back in the looking glass