Cage - A Suicidal Failure lyrics

Remember how good things used to be?
(Although I seem and appear)
Remember how good things everything
Used to be? (to the naked eye to be normal)
It used to just be so good
It used to just be me and this girl
(thoughts grow haunted inside my head)
Yeah, right rrright!
(then strike! Pull out my naked
Eye and with this
My mask of sanity's about to slip)

Sittin in my room with a razor blade
Thinkin all my days are played as much
As my single needs to fade away
Shoot myself in the arm and start bleedin
Don't wanna go yet
Stick a straw in my wound
And taste my heart beatin
Fuckin bitch left me and I
Ain't even peaked yet
(Fuck all that noise playboy
This leak's wet) smoke a bundle to the face
Lace my brain and neurons
Carvin all my downfalls into
My fuckin forearm
(Cage snap out of this, it's just a girl)
It's just the world, it's just a life
It's just a rusty Rambo knife
Wedged between my ribs scratchin
My heart up tonight
I'm gonna pull this shit off in
Front of all my friends
Went swimmin under the Brooklyn Bridge
Tryna catch the bends
Didn't swim deep enough my
Head imploded ten percent
Floated to the surface
The paramedic's like - what's this dent?
(I want everbody to back up
He's still alive)

I'm a suicidal failure
Look my life's a failure
I can't make it in rap
Because my birth's an error
Do what I can to catch a quick death
But, I'm meant to be here and that's
The fuckin hell I live with

I'm a suicidal failure
Look my life's a failure
I can't make it in rap
Because my birth's an error
Do what I can to catch a quick death
But, I'm meant to be here and that's
The fuckin hell I live with

Took the phone off the hook
Ate multi-colored pills
Washed it down with Absolut and
Started writin out my will
Give my dawg bootlegs PS2 and DC
To my girl who left me when she said
"Pick me or PCP"
Since I love to smoke I thought it was a joke
Tried to hang myself and I
Fell free from the rope
Broke both my arms, my neck smashed my femur
Got up somehow and limped in
Front of a beamer
Cracked my rib cage, look what you did Cage
You're dying
But, I'm not dead yet I'm still trying
Cut my wrist and walked past
Some crips bleedin red
In hopes that I get shot in the fuckin head

I'm a suicidal failure
Look my life's a failure
I can't make it in rap
Because my birth's an error
Do what I can to catch a quick death
But, I'm meant to be here and that's
The fuckin hell I live with

I drank a bottle of Jack
Sniffed three bottles of kitty
In the middle of the freeway
Walkin to the city
So much PCP I changed my name to watermouth
Pumpin Masta Ase I walked
Into a jewish +Slaughtahouse+
Throw myself on the hook
Now that's the chorus
Got split from my neck to my dick
Now that's what gore is
Hollow man look at all my dangling parts
Dropping to the gutter with a piece
Of you in my heart
Little piece of shit that I
Couldn't fling from my chest
Should of stayed alive long enough to
Kill the fag you're with
But right now, my skin is gettin stripped off
Each one of my limbs is ripped
Off covered in thick sauce
My head hit's the conveyer
I'm not thick and a prayer is sick
I'm wacthin a movie at Loewe's alone
And you suckin some guy's dick
Six seconds left when I die
I'm gonna find her
On some Poltergeist shit while my
Face goes through the grinder

I'm a suicidal failure
Look my life's a failure
I can't make it in rap
Because my birth's an error
Do what I can to catch a quick death
But, I'm meant to be here and that's
The fuckin hell I live with