CAL - Better by Now lyrics

Life takes us all directions
I live in two dimensions
One where we win it all
And one where we're honorable mentions
Nobody shows you low-lights
Probably 'cause they'll be most nights
That before I said goodbye I
Say it all the time

And I buried you in my
Head but seeds don't grow
And I need you to know

I'm not sure you left me
With my pieces put together
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now
And I'm not sure I'll ever be
That kid you that remember
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm

I suffer from self awareness
Nobody knows or cares too many things I do
Didn't know I got from you
But low key I like it a lot
So slowly I'm connectin' the dots
Oh, feel guilty I can't remember moments
You and me never got

I buried you in my head but seeds don't grow
And I need you to know

I'm not sure you left me
With my pieces put together
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now
And I'm not sure I'll ever be
That kid you that remember
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm

I'm not sure you left me
With my pieces put together
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now
And I'm not sure I'll ever be
That kid you that remember
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I'm not, no I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I'm not, no I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not

Supposed to be better supposed to be better
Supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not

I'm not sure you left me
With my pieces put together
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now
And I'm not sure I'll ever be
That kid you that remember
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm

I'm not sure you left me
With my pieces put together
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now
And I'm not sure I'll ever be
That kid you that remember
I was supposed to be better
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
No, no I'm not
I was supposed to be better by now, I'm not
I'm not, no I'm not i was supposed to be