Caleb Hyles - On My Own lyrics

I'm alright, I'll be fine trust me
I don't like the ending that
I've written this time
Brand new day, daily grind
Pour another cup of sunshine in
This black heart of mine

Crack a smile, shed a tear inching closer
Ever closer to a life without fear
Open mind, open wide take a peek inside
Maybe you'll find a reason to try

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
And no, I'm not doing this
Doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish the circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own

Guеss I'm thinking I can self-diagnose
How the hеll can an HMO know?
Call the doctor and the doctor said
"Please press 1 for payment"

Terrified of the unknown
Unknown discomfort ahead
Sometimes, I wonder what it's
Like being normal

I guess there's something inside me
Just not understood
Perhaps it's all within my imagination
Clock in, punch out, fade in, die out
It's just too much, I promise I am trying

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers the reality
No oh oh, I'm not doing this, doing this
Just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own

Was I nurtured into this frame of mind?
Or is it nature that I cannot fight?
But still
I grab this pen to change my future
The past, I look for answers
Nostalgia starts to blur

Nostalgia starts to blur

I'm alright, I'll be fine
Guess you gotta just believe me when
I tell you this time
No control, no complains
Life is like a happy ending
It does not work that way

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers over reality
No oh oh, I'm not doing this, doing this
Just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own