Capstan - Denouement lyrics

The world I thought I knew
Dissolved and born again
In the form of truth
I was unprepared

All of my indiscretions digested
At the same time
Crushing self-awareness without a
Warning sign
(There's no warning sign)

For the past five years I've been a wreck
If I could find my heart I'd apologize
From the bottom of it
Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death
I close my eyes and catch my breath
I can't believe I let myself get this far
Consistently tearing myself apart
Reconstruction so out of reach
Redemption's in the wreckage
Just dig deep beneath

I've been avoiding divine intervention
I've had my head in the clouds but
Now I'm ready to come down
I'm hell bound

Devil on my shoulder hello my old friend
Have you come to gamble with me again
The stakes are raised I'll put
It all down on red
Or let the black send me to my end

For the past five years I've been a wreck
If I could find my heart I'd apologize
From the bottom of it
Self-destruction is hard to admit

Staring at the aftermath of an ego death
I close my eyes and catch my breath
I can't believe I let myself get this far
Consistently tearing myself apart
Reconstruction so out of reach
Redemption's in the wreckage
Just dig deep beneath

Such destruction formed by
Untimely circumstance
Reality misconception through a
Psychedelic trance
The requiem played on yet there
Was no one to dance
All mankind caught in a loveless romance

Are we so desensitized that
We've forgotten what's real
Numbing life down to a
Complacent synthetic feel

I will not bow down to
This out of touch reality
We live lifeless lives glorify your mortality
Hold on to every moment when you're
Overwhelmed and brought to tears
So out of touch and hardened. Why is
It that we can't grasp these years?

Not the lost hope or sadness
But burdens we've conquered in
Times of madness
In times of madness